Always...

A moment with you, a drop of sweetest wine.

Thoughts of you, the coolness of a breeze.

Your touch, the warmth of a bright day.

Your voice, a rush beyond words.

Your presence in a crowded room

Though hardly together,

In those moments I lived.

You were my every dream come true

Held your hand, promised I won’t let go.

Happiness I found in loving you,

How? You were never mine to begin with. 

Hoping someday you’d...

So I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear.

Time and distance din’t matter,

I fell in love with you everyday.

Amidst the chaos, you dint hear me say

I’m here to stay.

You din’t see my eyes

How much you meant to me.

I was there, never left your sight

But not good enough, unnoticed.

I knew you weren’t proud to have me

I knew it all, fell apart,
But for you, I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear. 

Your heart, I felt its pain, taunted

Your mind, tainted by memories.

Even when we talked about “us”, 

You had your doubts and fears. 

I knew I won’t be a part of yours

But I felt the world under your arms.

Missing you, a constant torment, 

Excruciating, but keeps me alive and sane.

I tried all possible ways to be immune

This love, it doesn’t set me free.

Tears ran dry, learnt to smile,

Because your are my pain, I bear. 

Not your body but your soul, 

Felt it, loved every inch.

You were everything I had

My man, my love and my art.

Write verses, paint memories of you

This wound of mine, it doesn’t heal. 

A hole plunged through the heart

With a mind torn apart, eviscerated.

Becoming soulless, fading away

Eventually a memory, until then....

Always, smiling

Because you are my pain, I bear. 

The Wandering Soul

You live in a world of unlimited choices, what exists today may not be there tomorrow.
People will underestimate your expressions, emotions, your kindness, or the way you care.
They could perceive you wrong, take you for granted.
They'll control you, judge you, manipulate you, strip you down, betray and leave you in the dark.
Taunting words, broken promises, death of a loved one, all could emotionally destroy you.

You’ll fall, bleed to death.
You'll pick up what’s left of you, and continue walking.
You are taught not to break a heart, even those who can’t handle yours.
You let go, pray for those who hurt you the most, for their happiness, they deserve better.
Your age, body, skin, choices will change.
Your scars will remain, you’ll have more wounds, and your life...will change with time. 

What matters is...

You’ve known pain like your own shadow.
You are born with a loving heart.
You’ve known to love, genuine and unconditional.
But, you don’t need a coward who’ll awaken your love but can never love you.

What matters is...

You are built in fire.
You are born for a reason, and you’ve found yourself.
You are determined.
You are still standing even after the worse storm, that too with a smile.
And that makes you strong, brave - a true survivor. 

Mist

When I see you, I forget all the pain

Feel alive once again.

I wonder how does it feel to touch you,

Or hold you close?

I am just a human, having a heart

That envies those

Who gets to see you every day,

The way you smile with love,

The way you hug, arms wide spread.

I know, you are just a dream

You'll only last for a moment,

But...it's worth a wait

For a lifetime.

"Mist"

Watercolor on paper (24x22)

My heart

I wake up from a deep sleep,
And my day starts by hearing your voice.

I wait for the sun to rise and never to set,
I can talk to you then all day long

I know one day you will leave me,
My smile, flower petals falling off one by one.

Even then, I’ll be with you till that day,
Every single moment, a drop of the sweetest wine.

I wish to be a cool breeze,
So I could hold your hand and walk with you,

I wish to be a ray of light,
So I could lead you away from sorrows and give you happiness.

I wish to be a star up in the sky,
So I could watch you from billions of miles away,

I wish to be a butterfly,
So I could kiss you goodnight.

I don’t have anything with me to give,
But…

Something that beats faster
When it hears your voice and aches when it doesn’t.

It’s my little heart, that’s pure and true
It has only known how to completely love you.

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