Always...

A moment with you, a drop of sweetest wine.

Thoughts of you, the coolness of a breeze.

Your touch, the warmth of a bright day.

Your voice, a rush beyond words.

Your presence in a crowded room

Though hardly together,

In those moments I lived.

You were my every dream come true

Held your hand, promised I won’t let go.

Happiness I found in loving you,

How? You were never mine to begin with. 

Hoping someday you’d...

So I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear.

Time and distance din’t matter,

I fell in love with you everyday.

Amidst the chaos, you dint hear me say

I’m here to stay.

You din’t see my eyes

How much you meant to me.

I was there, never left your sight

But not good enough, unnoticed.

I knew you weren’t proud to have me

I knew it all, fell apart,
But for you, I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear. 

Your heart, I felt its pain, taunted

Your mind, tainted by memories.

Even when we talked about “us”, 

You had your doubts and fears. 

I knew I won’t be a part of yours

But I felt the world under your arms.

Missing you, a constant torment, 

Excruciating, but keeps me alive and sane.

I tried all possible ways to be immune

This love, it doesn’t set me free.

Tears ran dry, learnt to smile,

Because your are my pain, I bear. 

Not your body but your soul, 

Felt it, loved every inch.

You were everything I had

My man, my love and my art.

Write verses, paint memories of you

This wound of mine, it doesn’t heal. 

A hole plunged through the heart

With a mind torn apart, eviscerated.

Becoming soulless, fading away

Eventually a memory, until then....

Always, smiling

Because you are my pain, I bear. 

In God's Witness

I wander lost, see you in my dreams
I lie awake, still thinking
What could’ve been if you were here with me?
May it be fate, or a change of heart
You’re gone, I’m all alone.
Does God tell you how I keep myself alive?
Do you see me close my eyes,
Breathe in your memories?
Do you hear me cry?
With a heartache that kills me?
Can you feel me reach out to the stars?
Hoping if I could see you one last time.


In God’s witness, I promise,
A vow for a lifetime and many more...
If I live again, I’ll find you.
I’ll protect you, fight your wars,
Be your hope, the way you are mine.
But...will you remember me
If I call out your name?
Will you hold me close
Feel my heart?
Will you believe if I say “I love you”
More than you’ll ever know.
I may not be your first,
But I hope to be the last you loved.

Mist

When I see you, I forget all the pain

Feel alive once again.

I wonder how does it feel to touch you,

Or hold you close?

I am just a human, having a heart

That envies those

Who gets to see you every day,

The way you smile with love,

The way you hug, arms wide spread.

I know, you are just a dream

You'll only last for a moment,

But...it's worth a wait

For a lifetime.

"Mist"

Watercolor on paper (24x22)

My heart

I wake up from a deep sleep,
And my day starts by hearing your voice.

I wait for the sun to rise and never to set,
I can talk to you then all day long

I know one day you will leave me,
My smile, flower petals falling off one by one.

Even then, I’ll be with you till that day,
Every single moment, a drop of the sweetest wine.

I wish to be a cool breeze,
So I could hold your hand and walk with you,

I wish to be a ray of light,
So I could lead you away from sorrows and give you happiness.

I wish to be a star up in the sky,
So I could watch you from billions of miles away,

I wish to be a butterfly,
So I could kiss you goodnight.

I don’t have anything with me to give,
But…

Something that beats faster
When it hears your voice and aches when it doesn’t.

It’s my little heart, that’s pure and true
It has only known how to completely love you.

#thewanderingsoul #loveisallthereis #myheart

Verses for Painting & Photography

Broken

Someone once asked me “How do you depict something excruciating that you go numb and cannot speak. You don’t know what hit or when? It’s hard to explain! Because something just dies in you and every moment you feel that!”
It’s difficult to draw a person with such sorrow. The only thing I could think of was how if something hit a glass?
“Broken”
White compressed charcoal on black paper(30x30)
#charcoalpainting #alwaysanartist#deathandsorrow #blackandwhite

"Whiff of Life"

Combined painting and it's version as a banner. 

#painting #verses #whiffoflife #memories #thewanderingsoul @dotsandhues @dottedmoments

"Bloom"

Photograph was taken for one of the road trips

Quote: "My thorns may hurt you, but you must know they protect me from getting hurt by you. I am just a flower, not to be crushed by your whims and fancies. Nurture me, I bring beauty to your garden, a symbol of love and life." - Quotes on Life, Ayanah