Always...

A moment with you, a drop of sweetest wine.

Thoughts of you, the coolness of a breeze.

Your touch, the warmth of a bright day.

Your voice, a rush beyond words.

Your presence in a crowded room

Though hardly together,

In those moments I lived.

You were my every dream come true

Held your hand, promised I won’t let go.

Happiness I found in loving you,

How? You were never mine to begin with. 

Hoping someday you’d...

So I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear.

Time and distance din’t matter,

I fell in love with you everyday.

Amidst the chaos, you dint hear me say

I’m here to stay.

You din’t see my eyes

How much you meant to me.

I was there, never left your sight

But not good enough, unnoticed.

I knew you weren’t proud to have me

I knew it all, fell apart,
But for you, I did smile,

Because you are my pain, I bear. 

Your heart, I felt its pain, taunted

Your mind, tainted by memories.

Even when we talked about “us”, 

You had your doubts and fears. 

I knew I won’t be a part of yours

But I felt the world under your arms.

Missing you, a constant torment, 

Excruciating, but keeps me alive and sane.

I tried all possible ways to be immune

This love, it doesn’t set me free.

Tears ran dry, learnt to smile,

Because your are my pain, I bear. 

Not your body but your soul, 

Felt it, loved every inch.

You were everything I had

My man, my love and my art.

Write verses, paint memories of you

This wound of mine, it doesn’t heal. 

A hole plunged through the heart

With a mind torn apart, eviscerated.

Becoming soulless, fading away

Eventually a memory, until then....

Always, smiling

Because you are my pain, I bear.